Last week was one of the most draining and anxious weeks of my life. I cried everyday and couldn't sleep most of the time. Paranoia,rage and fear were devouring me.
I was supposed to start my researches and my writing on my new book, but my brain was hurting and I found myself trapped in a body that was refusing to leave the bed, to sleep and to eat. Then, my thoughts. The most insidious and dark patrol. My worst enemies.
They didn't stop,they are still there. They are just waiting for something worse to happen.
I can't even fight them anymore, I am unable to sit and erase the fear or find the sparkle, as I always did. The scariest part for me isn't even the death but the lack of justice following it. I don't want to be one of the "missing girls", vanished and forgotten.
The worst thing is not to die on earth,but in people's mind.
#BLACK LIVES MATTER